Saturday, October 25, 2008

Vroom

Life of late feels like a lot of work. Not in a bad way - just a lot of tasks, a lot of cleanups, a lot of childcare. A lot of mega-multitasking. Patting the baby while picking up stuff off the living room floor with my toes. I had forgotten about the toe-ability I've honed with each munchkin. I feel like I work from when I wake up until right before I go to sleep, when I crawl into a heavenly heavenly hot bath and soak and don't have to take care of anyone. For a little while.

Tonight when I was making "big eyes" at the baby cranking and fussing and needing to be held again, I realized tonight that I "tend" - babies, children, husband, house from 7:30 AM to 10:30 PM. That's pretty much all day. I know lots of people do this - but I'm still getting used to the idea of non-stopped-ness. Give me a minute here, people.

I crawled under the desk tonight to plug the modem back into the wall after we had unplugged it because of lightning. While I was under there, Tim informed me that I sort of needed to take the baby back (he was holding Zion) so that he could finish his sermon. I informed him that I was sorry, but I was losing him, that I was in a tunnel and was pretty sure we were going to be disconnected. Then I just stayed there under the desk for a little while in the blessed aloneness, resting my head on my arms, surrounding by calm white cables who weren't asking for a blessed thing. I decided I felt more empathetic for the ostrich after I came out. When you hide your head and can't see anyone, it sort of does feel like you simply aren't there to deal with the current crisis.

Despite the fact that life may sound a mite stressful, it actually isn't unenjoyable. The post-pregnancy crankiness that lingered for about 3 weeks has finally mostly faded, and I feel like we are settling more into a routine where life is a bit more predictable and Zion isn't quite as fussy as he had been.

Tommorrow I'll try to post some pictures. Right now I'm going to go enjoy the fact that my children are sleeping and the house is quiet and I have nothing else to do right now but whatever I want.

Good-bye!

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well, you know I can totally relate right now. Sometimes I just want to stay in the shower and not come out! Or put the covers over my head or something....
With you sister, Candice

Cottonista said...

I'll have to try the under-the-desk thing. Although, I would probably have some helpers in all of 3 seconds.

heather said...

I am so there with you, Carrie! I feel the same way & wish I had a desk to crawl under! I lock the bathroom door sometimes, but when I'm in there, I see how dirty it is & think of everything else I need to do before the bathroom! No stress relief there :o Lord help all the mommies!

Anonymous said...

I'm glad to know that someone else uses their toes to pick things up off the floor :). Janice

Carolyn said...

those were the days, and I remember how much I wished for a few hours of relief. Wish I could do that for you, Carrie. If only I weren't so far away.

Anonymous said...

Hi, Carrie, dear! I haven't read your blog in a couple of months and had 24 unread posts. OK, so, I didn't read them all, but was, as always, entertained and encouraged. Loved, loved your account of Zion's birth. Congrats!! A mother of three children deserves the title "amazing"! A mother of three boys deserves "extra amazing". -Kristin Bucher from China

Sandy said...

I loved this post, Carrie. Well, I pretty much love all of them, but this one was so authentic in your description, that it instantly brought 30 year old memories to the surface. Your friends' comments are great, also.

That you and Tim were able to "seize the moment" with some humor speaks well of healthy coping skills and a strong marriage/parenting partnership. Your sons will be wonderful men, full of good humor and grace.

Thank you for sharing your family's daily adventures with us via the blog. David and I greatly enjoy your posts.